Pain

It's what I always wanted, so what am I waiting for? 
I start to cut, and feel the pain.
It sears through my hands
until I drop the scissors
I sit back and the tears form
Shredded fabric and paper
surround me on the floor
Will I ever be able to finish this?
Who knew that dreams...
could be so painful!
Do I have the strength 
to push through the agony?
To make it in a world
where people disbelieve an illness they can't see?
If there were some kind of medicine 
that could ease this pain, but would kill me eventually... I'd take it! 
Now I understand what they mean by "quality of life!" 
I'd rather not have to live my whole life with this pain and frustration.

Letting go

Do I let go, now
Do I let go
of this little fear?
Is it alright that I like you
and just want you to be near?
Used to hold so much away
The only thing I knew
to keep the demons at bay
Now I'm all done, babe
Now I'm all done
feeling this miserable
Why did you help me
to open that door?
Why are you so
So much alike
I don't know what to
do with myself
Done with the run, yeah
Done with the run
and I won't chase anymore
I get too flirty
then I get hurt
Pick myself off the floor
Do I let go now
Do I let go?